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"Anarchy is not intended to be sustainable. It is not a system of government, a codified list of rules and beliefs, or a mind set geared toward cultural constructivism. It is a spark, a flash, a small flame that ignites a paradigm-obliterating explosion. It is destructive by nature. It lies dormant and, like diesel fuel, can only be ignited by tremendous pressure. It deconstructs. It strips flesh from bone and grinds bone to dust. It is doomed to consumption in the conflagration instigated by its own primal spark. It is a catalyst. It is tinder. It is powder and fuse."

Rich Oliver



Reprogramming the Cosmic Walkie Talkie

Everyone is entitled and programmed for direct communication with the Creator, but we have to undo a great deal of interference created by false programming first.
I feel that the biggest impediment to direct communication is a personal definition of self worth based on adherence to external, prescribed memes and beliefs.

C’mon, we ALL know the whole “I’m not worthy” mantra that permeates the whole man-god communication issue…maybe even bought into it from time to time ourselves. I believe that this kind of externalized validation leads to a complete communication blackout. It shuts off the transceiver…US.

“Worthiness” is the elusive, subjective, intimate tuner that makes or breaks the transmission of spiritual data back and forth between us and our Creator. Only the individual can know if he/she is “in tune”. Only the individual can determine with any degree of certainty if the communication is taking place. No one but the individual can observe and judge either the “worthiness” of the individual or the quality of the communication taking place within the individual soul. No one. Not even a GA or Bishop. Period.

Strangely enough, I experienced YEARS of communication blackout while still active and a TBM. Absolute blackout, like my questions and pleadings were not even making it outside of my own skull. I was able to overcome this when I finally decided to look beyond the parameters of proper prayer etiquette prescribed by my LDS up bringing.

First of all, I let go of the concept of personal unworthiness. I stumbled, dumbfounded, upon a life changing concept while browsing the digital archives of a popular occult website. Our bodies are intended to be an interface with material reality and are designed as bioelectric pulse engines that TRANSMIT electrical frequency… transmission implies two way communication. Our bodies, then, are literally VESSELS, INSTRUMENTS, and TOOLS that vibrate IN HARMONY with a specific set of frequencies. We communicate through our bodies. Drugs, excessive food, bad nutrition, lack of sleep…anything that affects our instrument will affect the nature and effectiveness of our transmission. Even too much church, especially if it instills a sense of dread, fear or inadequacy. It muddles the transmission.

The channel is always open and is always accessible, we just modulate in and out of frequency according to our physiological state of flux at any given time. I feel that is a fundamental reason why we are herd animals, so that as we “dream together” we are able to pretty much guarantee constant communication with the forces of creation despite individual flux.

If prayers aren’t being answered, tune the channel. Change your diet, exercise, meditate, dispel fear, get a sense of “worthiness” consistent with logic instead of ambiguous feeling… you have a body and are equipped to use it as a tool. Demand and expect communication. NEVER, never, never say “Thy will be done” as this is the cosmic equivalent of saying “whatever” and broadcasting an aloof, uninvested attitude toward actual communication. Ask for and expect an answer in real time.

Learn to identify somatic responses within your instrument that coincide with analog Yes and No verbal responses. I feel a Yes answer just behind my left eye as a warm pressure. A No answer registers behind my right ear as a void. It works every single time. It just took a great deal of time to actually unlearn the programmed response and identify the means of communication. It is important not to limit the expression of the things you ask for if they represent actual material states…money, love, money, health, money… because limiting the manifestation to tight parameters will take longer and you may not actually receive what is best for you. It’s important to delimit manifestation especially in regards to religious expectation if you want to be open to accepting the answers in a broader perspective.

Hope that clarifies

A side note regarding prayer practices that I think can be related to feminism…

Esoteric Occult philosophy teaches of two paths, two approaches to spellwork (prayer) that an adept can choose to follow. They are referred to as The Left hand Path and The Right Hand Path. The LHP is the archetypal masculine and is accomplished by demanding and forcing one’s will on the cosmos with full expectation of immediate results. The RHP is the archetypal feminine and is accomplished through pleading and nurturing and leaves the result up to the chaotic forces of the cosmos. The LHP produces a sorcerer, the RHP produces a magi. Dark Side / Light Side stuff fer sure, but not in reference to ethical or moral definition. Just locus of control and application of personal will. Neither is inherently good nor evil and the outcome and focus of each path is determined by the adept. In other words, there are Good Sorcerers and Evil Magi and vice versa. Neither is defined by sex, sexual orientation despite the masculine / feminine archetypes invoked.

Historically, one chooses the method that suits one’s tastes, sensibilities and outlook. If one does not work, the other might. LHP and RHP are also geared along a spectrum and no two approaches are exactly alike. LHP develops a sense of self empowerment and a strong internal locus of control. RHP develops a deep sense of interconnectedness and an external locus of control. Some practitioners move between the paths as dictated by the situation.

If pleading for an answer doesn’t work, you might try demanding one…