Celebrating personal discordia and spiritual anarchy.

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"Anarchy is not intended to be sustainable. It is not a system of government, a codified list of rules and beliefs, or a mind set geared toward cultural constructivism. It is a spark, a flash, a small flame that ignites a paradigm-obliterating explosion. It is destructive by nature. It lies dormant and, like diesel fuel, can only be ignited by tremendous pressure. It deconstructs. It strips flesh from bone and grinds bone to dust. It is doomed to consumption in the conflagration instigated by its own primal spark. It is a catalyst. It is tinder. It is powder and fuse."

Rich Oliver

Exhale. Sit. Regret. Wonder.

Why did I do that? What was I needing to prove? Sabotage? Fear? Ego? Id? WTF?
I am not like that, why now when I have found what I have been looking for most of my life?
Am I that desperate to throw it all away? I am not this way. I have never been this way.
I hope I didn't fuck it all up.